Sometimes, oftentimes, I wonder if I actually "count" as a scientist. If I'm really a scientist, or just someone with high-functioning autism and a love of applied mathematics.
I don't find myself fitting in with the rest of the scientific community, or not very well.
I don't hold to empiricism, or naturalism, or logical positivism, or modernism, or any of the other epistemologies associated with science and atheism. I don't think repeated experiment is the only way to know anything. It's certainly a very good way, but there are others as well. Just for instance, I find Sacred Scripture - namely the Bible - to also be a valid source of knowledge, and one with which empirical knowledge must be reconciled.
I don't think further scientific research represents "progress" of the human race. I don't see science as an end of itself -- I see it more the way a hot rod enthusiast might see fixing up an engine. I think sometimes technology has hurt society. Some scientific investigations are morally wrong, and I don't care how much "progress" comes of them.
Also, I have a hard time calling some things "science". Like biology largely seems as scientific to me as sociology... which is to say not at all. Just because someone made observations and calculated some p-values doesn't make it science, in my mind -- whether it makes it "science" objectively from modern definitions is something else. When people cite "scientific" studies of giving orange jello to half the subjects and green to the rest and noticing an increased risk of later heart disease in those who ate the orange, I give that about as much weight as anecdotal evidence. Whether I "should" give it more weight isn't the issue -- in terms of statistics, double-blind clinical studies carry far more reliability than anecdotes -- but I just don't find it compelling intellectually. Physics I do, computer science I do, math I do, most chemistry even... but a lot of other fields cited as "scientific" fall short of the sort of absolutist, logically necessary quality that I consider true science.
I'm also largely uninterested in experimental results. The process of performing an experiment is exciting to me, and understanding how an experiment works is exciting, but the meaning of the results doesn't entice me at all. Data seems mostly like an irrelevant detail, after the planning and arrangement of the equipment to make it. Of course, being in theory, I've never actually done a real experiment -- and likely for this reason.
There's a lot of things, that really make me feel like I am not a scientist at all. Like I'm just some guy playing at it because it's neat, but not really living it the way my peers do. It's not my worldview, it's not my hope, it's not my canon of truth and goodness. I just study it because it's fascinating.
Sometimes, I think that I really don't have any business studying physics, and that I should instead drop out and go to seminary or something.
So there you go. Sometimes, I don't feel like I'm really a scientist, and like I shouldn't call myself that no matter how much science I do or study, and that I should probably do something else with my life; and it's likely most real scientists would agree.